I am ready for a change.
My life has been hit with some heavy stuff the past couple of years; breakups, deaths, big financial loss, and a lot more.
I think there is a yin for this yang though and I just need to believe in better times ahead or I will find myself giving up. I thought my dad dying was the end of the string of bad luck but then I went and lost the $100K that he gave me in his will and that iced the cake. I’ve learned a lot from this loss though, and HVAC repair is about the only good thing that is left in my life right now. If I didn’t have that job I’d be living on the streets more or less. The heating supplier kept me on board after all of that bad stuff hit me and I was missing work a lot. I just had no energy to go on, and going to work all day was just out of the cards for me at the time. I am an HVAC tech by trade and a musician at night, but I quit both of those pursuits because I couldn’t get out of bed anymore. I’ve never been that low in life, but I did learn that there is a part of me that wants to go on, even stronger than the sadness that was taking over my life. The HEPA filter salesman told me the same thing happened to him when he was a local contractor, so just know that there is a silent and strong part of you that will keep you going when all else fails. I send you love and strength.